Random Thoughts 1

Just because a particular natural phenomenon occurs over a period of "24 human hours" why does everyone has to plan his life around it. I mean its definitely not natural or instinctual. When a child is born he doesn't starts sleeping or getting up or eating according to that. In fact he is trained, forcibly, to follow that set of rules to make our life easier. My day for example has lately been occurring in more of a 36 hours cycle than 24 and its making me feel guilty and bad which i don't think i should be feeling.

Blabbering

He saw it with a sad smile; and kept back his previously written diary. He remembered how he use to cry once, even knew how to laugh and HOW MUCH he wanted those overwhelming phases and nightmares to get over and his life to be a bit more stable.

Today, after months and years gone by; standing in his balcony, he tries to feel even a small fraction of emotions he felt back then, wished that his heart or head would ache but nothing, absolutely nothing stirs inside of him.

Something gradually transformed over time and more than often he did realize the change happening but just watched it in a confused and helpless state.
Laughing out of curtsey, faking anger, doing all the necessary formalities to prove one's existence as a living entity, he somehow manages to pass his everyday now.
No, there was no tragedy or sorrow, just a void that gradually took over his heart and now, has finally  started to scream its presence. Pointlessness of everything and every moment in life was beginning to pronounce itself out loud.

"Isn't it something I've always wanted", he thought, "to observe life from a safe distance, be a spectator rather than a player in this gigantic set, then what is it that i need now."

He picks up his empty glass from the railing and goes back to fight his daily battle till the sleep surrenders.

Movies

I've always had trouble deciding my favorites.

Depending on my mood and critical appraisal (things I ideally know are good and should be appreciated) there are many, many movies I like but here is a short list that I finally realized is my

favorite.. (Or so I think, for now).

In this particular case my definition for favorite would be most beautifully conveyed by that song Longfellow talks about in his poem 'the day is done'... These are the movies that really calm me down rather than stirring a horrible turbulence inside me.

Liberal arts

Before sunset

Two days in Paris

Good Will Hunting

Midnight in Paris

Two days in New york

Dead Poet Society

Mona Lisa Smile

Amelie

The Reader (though does not really go with the rest of the movies in the list but still... had to mention it)