Random

It happened again; a few days ago when with a sudden force, I pulled myself together somehow.

I realized I’ve started to drift away from physical realities more and more often. Maybe because of certain disappointments, disillusionment in general or horrors or whatever reasons, but now I shun the reality around me quite easily, without even having to make any conscious effort.

So, a few days back while I was traveling somewhere in a bus I realized, sitting after a few hours, that I didn’t even register the face of the person sitting right next to me, let alone the seat number or any other detail.

I thereby consciously made myself look around a bit. It was a pleasant night on a rather glamorous Yamuna Expressway with me sitting in a typical interstate rickety bus making at least ten different kind of sounds, innumerable loose parts chorusing.

I tried to smell the surrounding, see it, even register the touch of the seat and the grab bar with pealing paint. Tried to overhear some conversations around.

There was SO MUCH happening right around me towards which I was completely oblivious. 

Instead, I was just sitting swiping the screen of my cell phone, repeatedly locking and unlocking, lost somewhere, not even in thoughts just a certain void.

I don’t know why this has increased lately, frankly it has started to scare me a bit.

What if one of these days I just can’t come out of wherever it is I disappear! The prospectus both amuses and scares me.

-sometime around June, 2014

8/1/2014

I grew up in a family of a rather wide social circle, where words were thrown around with every breath taken. Words by various people, from varied backgrounds; however, the word so popular now a days, “Dharm” or Religion were hardly ever used in any context. I have no memory whatsoever of use of words pertaining to that particular clause. 

Hence the recent growing use of such words, redundant aggressive debates, logics and justifications seem a bit alarming to me. 

Whether or not I pray, believe, go to temple or any other religious abode was no one’s concern till a few years back. Then why is there this sudden need to even label the innocent colors with religion? How did this happen?  

Let’s talk of something else and keep what’s personal to us. 

I find it a bit obscene to go around public flaunting privates (be it religion or body organs, No matter how proud you might be for having it, keep it to yourself).